School Stress Setting In

Suppose to go to school now but I very lazy to go get ready. Now lectures have become very difficult to understand and lecturers are going at lightning pace. Haiz.. Will I make it out of that place successfully?

Cz, I think sometimes when its too tired, we will make mistakes. So dont blame yourself for that lah. Ur boss also make mistakes ma..haha..

Roslinah, I don't know how to deal with the books. Erm, when you free to pass me, you text me ok?

Now I am on my way for a long day to school , ending at 9pm tonight. So tired! Only 3rd week but I am grumbling like I am there for donkey years. haha.. Yea i am going to sink into depression soon. I dont know what I am blabbering now. Byebye.

Mildred

Stupid stupid stupid.......

I made a very stupid mistake today. Just before knock off.
I switched off the wrong computer, turning off my company's server off instead!!
Had intended to turn something else off.
And then my boss happened to see what I've done. i was rewarded with a black face.

Dunno what's my fate tomorrow when I turn up for work..........

Haiz...................


Caizhuang
一個吃不起苦的人

One year ago...

Today is my friend, Z's death anniversary. He departed 1 year ago. Come to think of it, it's STILL hard to accept that he's no longer in this world.

I remembered in June 2004, we celebrated another friend's 21st birthday. He was there - perfectly healthy - and we chatted quite a bit. Who knows, just barely 2 months later, we learnt that he was diagnosed with leukemia.

He was admitted to the NUH. I only visited him once, after which, he was discharged. His 21st birthday was celebrated at his house, where he invited many friends over. K called me up, asking me to go to Z's house to join in his birthday celebration( He stayed in Sembawang too, his house is just a 15 minute walk from mine), BUT I didn't turn up.

Instead, I showed up at his house with a belated birthday card the following day. He had undergone a few rounds of chemotherapy and I saw some tubes attached to his chest. He said he had to undergo 8 rounds of chemotherapy, but usually patients don't make it beyond the first few rounds.

But yes, he did survive his 8 rounds of chemo! I remembered him telling me that IF he survived till then, he would give me a treat at McDonald's. Also, I vaguely remembered him saying that " Go to Choa Chu Kang to offer incense to me"... It's rather melancholic to hear that...

In the afternoon of 26 August 2005, I received an sms. The content was something like this:

"Z suffered a heart attack and is in critical condition". Another regret - I failed to turn up at the hospital, without realising the seriousness of his condition."

At around 9pm, a friend asked me if I wanted to visit Z at NUH the following day. I agreed and we were discussing where and what time to meet, and what we should buy, etc...

That very same night, at around 11pm, I received an sms from a friend.

" I wanted to tell you guys something, Z has passed away. At 9 plus."

Actually, when I heard my hp beeping, I had a feeling that I might receive such an sms.

Upon knowing his departure, I didn't cry. It was until the following day I attended his wake and saw him lying in the coffin, my tears started to trickle. Automatic and beyond control. I didn't want to cry, because I had already done so prior to attending his wake. The moment I saw his body, I really couldn't believe. This friend of mine, still alive and kicking a few months ago, the one who chatted with me thru MSN, helped me upload my website, was lying motionlessly in the coffin.

I attended Z's cremation the following day. Everyone was upset, especially his father. I felt so sad for him because he loved his son very much. Before the cremation, Z's father placed his beloved guitar on top of the coffin,which was meant to be cremated together with Z. His father wept uncontrollably, haiz, it was such a sad scene. He waved Z goodbye as the coffin was pushed for cremation.

Z, I saw your picture in the Obituaries section in The Straits Times today.

You will always be remembered...


Boon Siew

- Nice to see more updated entries -

Hello Friends,
It's been a while since I've posted an entry. So let me start my lecture, here goes......

Wenxiu: Wow, from your entries you really miss Sanden alot. You can always meet up with them for e.g. go for their company outings? I am sure Helen will want you back during vacations and I think you can still go back and work after graduating from NUS. I think you will be happier because you can be 'inside' HR dept and don't need to be 'outside' receptionist.

Roslinah: Congrats on getting into Adecco. I think Lincoln was attached there the last time. I think you have projects to do during your attachment. It's a very good company to be attached too. You will have alot to write in you report. Remember to help me check a couple of things. 1) The frequency of the people 2) the job scope (is it HR- centred?) 3) what is the entry salary for us. Thanks gal!

Caizhuang: Oh dear big sister! You like that actor? OH please arrange a day to come to our school - the GREAT NUS. Why? Simply because many of the students are this type of guys (your dream guy). So make a trip down. It's very very worthwhile. *trust me*

Well,as for my updates, FINALLY we have a timetable drawn up. Although its the worst timetable ever, 5 days week and ending at 9pm on tuesday. Should be thankful that we are able to take 5 modules this sem. We must pray harder to clear these 5 modules!

Lonely Mildred

To Good to be Missed

Glad to know that my colleagues from Sanden still remember me and often send their regards to me. (haha...dinno that I was so popular??...Ok u all must be puking...hehe..coz i myself also puking)

Jimmy, Travis, Alex, Fuh Chyang, Dr Toh, Richard, Wui Kham,etc.. and even the canteen auntie! Hahaha.....

I kept asking my sister "who else who else??" I was hoping she would say the STQM guy, but....is he in the namelist above?

No. Haiz.


Boon Siew

*Oops* My mistakes....

I have left Sanden International for 3 weeks.

If I ever made grave mistakes in my work during my stay, I wouldn't know it, since I am not working there anymore. Surely my ex boss won't call me for an explanation on why I made those mistakes, right??

But the thing is, the one that replaces me is my sister. Therefore, whatever shit errors I made previously , she will call me during office hours, or bring home a pile of work, demanding me to CLEAR THE MESS.

Recently, she complained that I made a couple of mistakes. Luckily they were not grave issues, otherwise I would have been blacklisted by the HR ladies. (Erm..maybe I am already blacklisted, who knows)...

This links to another issue - my part time rice bowl.

My boss assured me that she would employ me to work part time during my school vacation.

Maybe she has taken back what she said...?


Boon Siew

I saw GRASSHOPPER!

VS

Haha...Don't think I saw my idol - 80s HK pop group 'Grasshopper' that comprises Remus Choy, Calvin Choy and Edmund So on the street. ( I 'm not so lucky...)

What I saw was....a REAL GRASSHOPPER in my toilet!

My sister and I splashed some water on it, hoping it would flow down the sink, but it didn't. When it finally jumped from the mirror to my shampoo bottle, I SCREAMED and ran away...My horrible screams woke my mother up, and I begged her to 'resolve' it for me.

I didn't get to see what she did in the toilet, but a moment later, the grasshopper was gone. Nowhere in sight. My mum said it has flown down the sink...

If it died, am I the indirect cause of its death???

Boon Siew

MC today >0<|||||||

Yeah~~~~~ i on mc today. Wan't feeeling that well today. And i also grab the chance to go for an interview!
I have been sending some resumes lately, hopping to find a better job, compared to my current one.
Alas! This job seems much tougher than my current one!
Lesson learnt:
Jobs are all that tough.

To tell the truth, I've been having a rough time at work. Work now seems so different as compared to the past.
I've to put up with my collegues nonsense, especially those very senior ones. Think they are crazy sometimes. And also have to put up with lots of scoldings etc.
Was thinking about giving up till someone gave me a piece of advice:

Jobs are tough, no matter which one you choose. It all depends on your mindset.
You have to put up with alot, but if your mindset says 'hey!!! It's nothing, I'm fine.' you will feel fine. But if you are angry with that person, and remember him/her for it, you will feel terrible. The working society is like tat. This is the time where we new graduates have to learn the ways of the working world. And from it, we learn how naive we used and slowly integrate into the society and become an adult.

It's all about mindset.

Even if we do not like this jpb, and it's not our dream job, the best thing we can do is to give our best and not let our selves down. Th worst thing is not abt being ask to leave. It's when you know you have let yourself down by not giving your best, and thus ask to leave.

I did not really that belive that all jobs are tough until today's interview. It's much worse than my curent job!!!!!

Hope I did not bore you guys with my 'sermon'
hahahha...

By the way, how do you find that china actor? I go for guys like him!!!!
Hahaahahah..



Caizhuang

heylow clannnnnnnnnnnnnn,

done wid ccm and now im left wid qm. hue. ccm was ok. can ans. anyhoooooooo guess wat??? im kinda excited for my ipp! heheh...i got into adecco...mil told me its a recruitment agency. dunno why but i thanked god i didnt end up in the service line. *shrugs*. checked out adecco webbie and their offices are all over sg. i dunno i end up where tho. and my lo is diana tan. and erm another one michael something. so its adecco from aug til nov. hue. kinda excited. eh i tink i said tt twice already. now im thinking of the outfits im gonna wear thruout the 3 mths there! heh. i need a black bag and a black shoe. tt will fit all my outfits. lol. uhmmmmm and ive checked theres quite a no. of nyp-ians got into adecco so i guess i wont be alone. hee.

tonite's gonna be qm nite. i wanna sleep now.

linah rode off her beettle

p/s: when is huijuan and kian ann gonna update? where are youuuuuuuuuuuu???

First time using blog.......

Hey gals!!!!
This is my first time using blog......hahahaahaaha....I'm old fashion already.
AND.................
I HATE WORK!!!!!!
Haiz...just had an indivdual training from my company on saturday. Frankly, my seniors aren't that bad. But I just hate my job.

Once one is out into society, your view of the world will change.

PS: I'm crazy over this China actor now. hahahaahah




Caizhuang

~My Ideal Hunk~

HAhahaha

I think this is then a real hunk ah...Kevin Cheng....from Hong Kong......HAhahaha

Boon Siew

Hyun Bin Promotion

Heyhey Girls and our Only guy (where are u? )

Kian Ann must tell us more about your KFC happenings leh... haha. I want to know more about your working life.I just finished 'MY LOVELY SAMSOON' , did you all watch? Aiyo, Wenxiu why you put all these funny pictures, must put Hyun Bin. Haha!! I must promote HYUN BIN to all ladies.. (picture on left). Must remember to watch his show on Ch u 10pm. Haha.. Best show..!!

Mildred Here

updates! updates!

heylowwwwwwwwwwwwww. i just love reading our entries. ahahahahaha. btw guys, i hev a blog in case u dunno...its arianitynebula.blogspot.com......and now i dunnno where to blog...ahahaha...i guess the more personal stuff should be stored at arianitynebula uh? doink! crappy~.

supply chain paper was JUZ OK. it sux la....i rem the main points heading and explanation i crap all the way....i tink theres a lot of "responsiveness" & "efficiency"...too much of those words i wrote...hurhuhrur...juz cross my fingers for this paper. and im done wid my contact ctr notes! weeeeeee....have yet to memorise tho...:s its on mon btw. uhmmmmmmmmm

im sleepy. wanna sleep. =)

gd nite.

linah drove off her beetle.

My not-so-happy dinner encounter

This is my favourite pastime. EAT.

Today I had my dinner at Sun Plaza. I wouldn't say the food court sells delicious food. In fact, there isn't any food stall in Sembawang that can make me patronize again and again. What a pity.

But I still have to satisfy my need for hunger. I passed by almost all the food stalls - Ipoh Hor fun, Vegetarian food, Meepok, Claypot rice, Japanese Cuisine, Yong Tau Foo, Kuay Chap..(ok can stop liao, coz I'm already starting to drool at the thought of food).

I decided to try the Japanese cuisine. After gazing at the menu for about 1 minute, I decided to try the Teriyaki Ramen. While the cashier was keying in my order, I asked

" Is it miso soup?"
" Yes"
( I gave her the YUCKS look)
"Then I want to change my order to... Udon"

While I was waiting for my Udon to be served, I saw a - cockroach - crawling at the counter.

I don't like the udon. Wasted my $4.

I should have ordered my favourite kuay chap.

Boon Siew

Worst show I've ever watched

We had our Intro to the Nanoworld lecture today. Nope, it WASN'T a lecture at all. It was a 1 hour video showing some Japanese explaining Nanotechonology. Hey, I thought the school is supposed to feed us with the most advanced and up-to-date info abt Nanotech? Afterall, Nano is about science and technology right? But the video featured a lady and a scientist in the 1980s. Ironic right?! ( See picture for those 1980s look ). Actually, the video wasn't useful at all. My knowledge on Nano before the video was 0. After watching the video, it is still 0. And I'd rather spend money to watch a movie @ the cinema. At least, I would have gained entertainment.

Boon Siew

Meaningful lyrics about friendship

" 好友　也象拍拖　难得会拍一世 离开再会亦是投契 "

These lyrics are extracted from Twins' Cantonese song.

I found this part rather meaningful.

I interpret it as:

" Good friends are considered 'lovers' as they tend to 'date' for life. When you meet your friend again in the later part of your life, the special bond is still there."

It striked me all of a sudden .

" Good friends click for life."

Boon Siew

Acquaintances vs True Friends

To me, my definition of a TRUE friend is someone

1. who will always be there for me when I am down.
2. who shares his / her happiness & woes with me and vice versa.
3. whom I can TRUST.

But my definition of a friend differs.

Acquaintances are also considered friends, but not to the extent of sharing my woes and happiness with. They can be colleagues, classmates, or schoolmates, etc. Afterall, ask yourself this.

"How did you get to know your current BEST and TRUE friend, and how did he / she become one?"

You also got to know him / her as an acquaintance in the first place isn't it? From there, you start to talk about common interests, get to know this person, etc, then it will slowly reveal whether or not this person can be your true friend.

I think the definition of a true friend is very 'valuable'. If every friend you meet meets the criteria of your TRUE friend, then of course life would be wonderful. But at the same time, I think the term 'true friend' will be devalued if every friend is considered a TRUE friend.

Boon Siew

Deep Thoughts

Hi friends,

Well, I think Roslinah's definition of good friend is very accurate and it's a blessing to find such a friend. haha.. if u have found one must treasure it like a gold bar. Haha..!!

I suppose the roller coaster feeling is common for us all.. First,maybe u can first calm down and think the source of ur mood swing. Then after that, FIND SOLUTIONS.

Make agreement with urself that u want to achieve this and work towards it. As to the direction u want to head in life, I guess I also dunno where I am going. Sometimes U plan, but the goal seems further n further,then u question youself, "is this really what I am heading for? or just a temporary thing?"

... So I guess just try to know yourself better and from there, you will know what you want and work towards that direction? *dun really know what i am typing here*

Mildred

heylow guysssssss......how ya doing?

been complaining a lot uh? hehehe....nah...kidding....its a norm i guess that we see sch as boredom and fear of being a loner in sch...everyone for sure wants to be somewhere in a grp and stuff....but that again shit happens! im sure u guys will have good time in sch...adapting is the word i guess...imagine our first yr in poly....how we make new frens and stuff...so its like repeating again...like a cycle.....so yeah, go and enjoy and grab ur degree fast too..=)

i hev some tots of mine to share aft reading ur entries..hehehe...*kaypoh* anyway i tink gossiping is OK...its not pathetic like wat boon siew said in her entry..mebbe sometimes it is and its like sourgraping..but...in fact i read this somewhere that gossiping shows that our mind is working and it helps our mind to be more creative...point is, if ya dont gossip and be a-goody-person, then ya're not a human! ppl talk and criticise -i dunno and how to spell the word-

to shiya, i noe how it feels being itchy all around....it sux big time! anyway do get well soon yeah and...hows the balloting anyway? u noe wat...the balloting always reminds me of those ppl who wanna get new house...hurhuhr

mil was saying abt definition of frens...i hev my own definition of frens....to me frens are not just there for sch, to hev fun or just to accompany because they've got no one...well..frens its like a general word...but a true friend is someone who'd be there for you and despite ur gd or bad, she or he accepts u. and although u guys didnt see each other very often, there's still the bond...in other words u wont feel awkward aft not meeting her or him for soooooooo loooooooong. she or he learns to understand you even if it take years. teeeeeeheeeeee......and of course it has to work both ways....u cant just accept and not giving.....=)

as for me, im too a loner...sturdeeying at home for supply chain now!...blergh...its moi turn to complain! nyiahahahaha....uhmmmmmmm......seriously sc sucks. i only understand lect 1-3...how arh??? grrrrrrr.....im going to the library later with heng boon to study and absorb watever there is to absorb....u guys noe heng boon? he's our batch from nyp too. apart from sturdeeying.....i guess life has been good to me.

guys, i hev a question here...how dya deal with your emotion when its like a roller coaster? i have this season when its like a roller coaster n it comes and goes as and when it likes. madness. and i hate it when i dunno which direction im heading.

olritey.....im heading off to my supply chain....grrrrr....

linah rode off her beetle.

cow with pink patches

hi guys, i too very surprise tat mildred will create a blog for us..frankly speaking, i nvr like the idea of having a blog cos was thinking why must let everyone noe so much...but well since the purpose of this blog is to keep us updated of wat's goin on among the 7 of us, i was thinking why not...hehe...

well, so why i put my heading cow wif pink patches cos guys, i'm sick!! ya, on the 2nd day of sch somemore, so unlucky...i got "hong mo"...tink the chinese noe wats tat...linah, no worry i explain...this is an illness where this person will itch all over for dunno wat reason and patches will form (like insect bites but this illness forms big big patches)... i hope u guys aren't feeling itchy rite now...haha...yup and yest was crazy for me..i itch all over and can't sit still...then i tot i look like a cow wif pink patches...wahaha...i'm gonna c doc to find out wats wrong wif me...

i hope to see more of u guys update this blog k..rem, 'keep this friendship going'...

shiya

~We met all sorts of people~

School's always boring and dull and is a torture... So we will always try to make our sch life more exciting.... Hmm...Well, actually we do quite enjoy *beoing* people and treat it as a laughing issue... (for our amusement coz that's one of the few pathetic ways to perk us up) Like, for instance, we saw a dirty looking ch*** man lookalike, an angmoh nerd, an Indian nerd, a glutton who couldn't wait to be seated and already busy gobbling up his food, and one who shook his butt when he walked (thinking he very wu seh) - At the Faculty of Science canteen (Happening eh?)- However, I was expecting to see an Einstein lookalike holding his test tube and walking around the campus...Would you be flabbergasted to see him? I would...

Boon Siew

We 'skipped' our 1st lecture in NUS

Hi friends,

Well, today didnt start off well. It was raining heavily as I was on my way to school. Then waited ages for the bus. In school, we had the crappiest lectuerer ever. She is our stats teacher and what Wenxiu say is true:" so different from Patrick Chin". She said we had to keep saying she is slim because our grades lie in her hands. *so mean*

After that we went for our Nanotechnology lecture. Haiz... very sad, because we just got to know it is a very difficult module and it requires Science Background. The lecturer couldnt make it so we had a 'stand-in' lecturer. The 3 of us went for an hour only and went home earlier than expected. *grins*

Now our fear is we scared we will be loners. Because our tutorials are not standardised so the chances of being alone is high. But we were saying some people have many 'friends' but they seemed lonely too. So what is the definition of friends? Only companion for u to school or have fun? Or someone who knows your inner feelings that u can share the deepest secrets with?? *wonders*

Mildred

hey guys,

it suprised me when mil came out with this blog...nice thought of u mil =) and im sure to update...nyiahahahahaha.....not that theres a lot to update but if this keeps the frenship going then i would! hehehe..uhmmmmmm.....ok people, lets update about each other aite? =)

linah rode off her beetle

p/s: tho sometimes i felt some kind of left out, it has always been nice being frens wid u guys :)

Welcome

Hi My friends,

I have created a blog for our group.All of us are entering different phases in lives now. Our only guy friend is going army. Huijuan and Caizhuang are starting their career path. Shiya, Wenxiu and I are paper chasing. Roslinah is also ending her studying and entering the working world.

I guess it will be difficult to understand one another's difficulties or problems. So I hope we can share with one another in our blog. Basically I hope we can still keep in contact. :) Friends are hard to come by. Moreover its good friends. Hope U all will support this blog and wont let it go to waste.

Mildred
15.08.2006